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Burning Down The House

December 7th, 2006 by epoyz

well obviously, the fucking system has broken down. a loooong time ago, in fact, nakakatawa na nga lang ang bango ng pagka-obvious paggising ko kaninang umaga.

i heard the news today, oh boy..ang mga put*ngin*ng house  of representatives  majority, dumale na naman. pero nakita ko na naman yan nung  wednesday ng madaling araw, nadaanan ko sandali yang "debate" nila tungkol sa con-ass. right there i already knew where this was headed, silly me, i don’t know why i’m still feigning surprise and outrage at an outcome that i already knew was coming.

but still.. ang kakapal na talaga, di ba? kainich.

frankly, i thought that when the supreme court junks something, that’s the end of it. yun e sa pagkakaintindi ko lang naman, ha? kaya nga nagkatiwala ako sa supreme court based on their decisions ruling against CPR and PP 1017 and the Cha-Cha train (more on this later). apparently, kung di talaga madadala sa magandang usapan, pupuwersahing dalhin sa pilitan hanggang sa dumugo (hwow, talagang pinilit yun, a…).

well, if there are indeed changes that desperately need to be made, sobrang tama itong si Neal Cruz: ibasura na yang kongreso. nyetta.

what the fuckers in congress exhibited is a brazen display of reminding us, sort of putting us in place, that we can’t do anything about something once they’ve set their sights on it. remember how they "killed the cadaver" that was the impeachment bid?

 

they have the power because they have the numbers, everything else is just futile theatrics. fuck everybody else that’s on their way. they’re going to find something to get around anything, you must be out of your mind to believe otherwise. given, they’re obviously desperate, yes, but they’re bringing out the big guns now, all the while showing us that we don’t have shit. without a leg to stand on in anything that they’ve passed on so far, sila pa din ang nananalo ultimately if you think about it hard enough. ang lugar natin sa lahat ng yan e, magkukumayaw at mag-umangal, show our utmost distaste at the whole thing as if they’ve just thrown feces at our faces and some of it found their way to our mouths (eww, but true). we’ll shout our most vehement protests to high heavens, bellow that this shit (we’re tasting) has to stop, write about it, talk about it in forums and debates, stir the public into revolt and decide that we’ll give the fucking administration something to cry about.

then do absolutely nothing. or, more accurately, achieve absolutely nothing.

now, about the supreme court… ok, ok, so tingin natin, although trampled by numbers in the congress, this shit definitely won’t fly because the senate already united in denouncing this con-ass (how so appropriately termed, by the way..) bago pa man na-resolve kaninang madaling araw. siyempre kontra senate jan, etsa-pwera sila eh. but still, great move, guys. kinda like when i was watching the "debate" on wednesday, iniisip ko na nga na mananalo na naman ang majority, so i had scenarios already playing in my head. i was able to go to sleep kasi, kahit ano mangyari, anjan pa naman ang supreme court.

then naalimpungatan ako. oongapala, tapos na ang term ni Justice Panganiban. crap.

kakatawa ko nung nagpupumilit kumandidatong chief justice si miriam santiago a.k.a. brenda, nakalimutan ko na kahapon na pala yun. shet.

kasi, based on what i’ve seen the past few months, i learned to trust the supreme court, albeit cautiously, because of Panganiban and company’s record so far. so, i was looking at the Supreme Court as truly "the court of last resort". (ow, haaaaaaaa?)

e ayan, nagpalit na nga ng chief justice. patay tayo jan.


so what do we make of new chief reynato puno? you tell me. ang ganang akin, isang mali lang niyan, sa mga panahong itich, tapos tayo.

so now, if all else fails, and should the Supreme Court finally betray democracy and the filipino people, what are our alternatives?

foreign intervention of some kind? pero malabo din yun, di ba?

so it comes down to revolution. na naman. hinihintay nga sana natin yung 2007 elections to make the change e (although pini-predict ko din na kung magkaroon man ng elections sa may, it will chase records in being the bloodiest elections ever..), pero kung matutuloy ang con-ass, walang elections. so yun na, magkakagulo na mga tao nyan. rebolusyon!!

kaso mo, if there’s going to be a revolution, we’re gonna have to face, nay, accept this possibility (english accent): it’s going to be bloody uh, err– bloody.

sadly (and please answer this truthfully, now..), knowing what you know, and seeing what you’ve seen the past few years, is getting killed in a revolution really worth it? for this country?

yun ngang mga journalist na naglalapgpakan na parang langaw na inispreyan ng baygon e, di natin ginugunita nang tama yung ultimate sacrifice nila, wala tayong pakialam, e paano ka gaganahan magpakabayani pag niratrat na nila ng bala ang edsa? OA ako, kanyo, di aabot sa ganun pag naglabasan tayo sa kalsada? talaga?

kasi, if you study it carefully, you know these fuckers will not relinquish power that easily. si guingona nga na ang tanda-tanda na, sinampolan nila ng water cannon, e, pampagana pa lang yun. alam kasi nila, being students of history, kung saan nagkamali si marcos nung ‘86: he got soft for a moment and that moment of weakness pounced on him. so ngayon, ika nga ng cypress hill, when the shit goes down, you better be ready. di simple mag-isip yang mga nasa pwesto, no? hanggang plan C meron yang mga yan. dapat ready ka din sa lahat ng possibilities.

so, knowing the peril, will you go?

nung panahon ni ninoy, siguro pa, kaya nga tumayo sa harap ng tangke yung mga tao sa edsa, e. idealistic pa mga pinoy nun.

nung panahon ni rizal, ni goyo del pilar, sige. giving up your life so that your country can be free of foreign occupancy, yan, ok yan. call ako jan.

pero ngayon, na kapwa pilipino mo ang kalaban mo, na pagtingin mo sa katabi mo e di ka sigurado na pare-pareho ang adhikain nyo–mabubuo pa ba loob mo magpakamatay kung sakaling dadating sa point na yun? o pag nakita mo yung mga pulis mambabato ka sabay tatakbo ka rin gaya nung feb. 24, 2006?

kaya nga: what will inspire a filipino to put his life on the line so that this country may be free again? specially when the poor already gets it: sila lang ang andun, kasi sila lang ang desperado na makaahon sa kinalulugmukan nila. at least nung people power ‘86, may nakita kang mga prominenteng tao SA KALSADA, hindi counted yung nasa stage lang, ha (richard gomez and company, whattup?).

di naman talaga united ang mga pinoy e. may mga mayayaman, who stand to benefit from all of this, who, win or lose (barring a cataclysmic event that will strip them of their riches and power), will still be rich. then there’s the rest of us who, win or lose, will go back to the reality that life in the Philippines is so damn hard. and then there’s the poorest of the poor who, win or lose, will still get overlooked and regarded as byproducts of a system you’re trying desperately to prop up.

sa panahon natin ngayon, na warak na ang prinsipyo ng pagkakapatiran ng mga pilipino, kahit si jim paredes ang tanungin mo, sasabihin niya sa ‘yo: puta, mamumundok na lang ako (or magma-migrate in his case..). i won’t die for you fools, i have kids to feed. and i don’t feel any resentment towards him and everybody who feels the same way. hell, i’m contemplating on pulling the same move myself. i haven’t given up on the filipino yet, pero sobrang dismayado na ko. puta, sa kalsada nga lang nagkukupalan na tayong lahat, e.

so, i guess it’s up to the people on top to stir the hearts of their countrymen. pag nakita mo na si kris aquino na nagpapakamatay para sa kalayaan ng bansang pilipinas, aba’y baka mag-alsa din ang mga fans niya. o kaya si willie revillame, magbilad sa edsa, aba’y wowowee, we may have a ballgame, boys. sina henry sy, sila danding, sina gokongwei at lopez…putsa kahit si manny pacquiao (tumiwalag ka na kay gloria, meng, bad career move yan..)— maki-martsa kayo kasama ng mga maliliit na tao kung dadating man ang rebolusyon, baka mapukaw pa ang diwa ng pagkakaisa  sa ating lahat.

but then again, i’m the king of wishful thinking.

o, anong masasabi mo, mr. justice secretary?

Gonzalez

exactly.

————

I’ll never know
I’ll never care
I’ll never bug you my people
I’ll tell you what I say
I’ll never lie
I’ll never try
I’ll never cry for you people
I’ll push you
Push you away

As you lonely people
Keep on runnin’ ’round my door
Yes, you lonely people
Keep on begging
Beg for more

And I’ll cry for you
Yes I’ll die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I’ll tell you now how I feel inside
Feel in my heart it’s for you

It’s for you
Only you
It’s for you

I’ll never try
I’ll never die
I’ll never push for you people
I’ll tell you how I feel
I’ll never lie
I’ll never cry
I’ll never try for you people
I’ll tell you, yes it’s real
And you lonely people
Keep on passing time away
Yes you lonely people keep on passing,
Pass away

And I’ll cry for you
Yes, I’ll die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I’ll tell you now how I feel inside
Feel in my heart it’s for you
And I’ll take everything
As it comes my way
Pushin’ your pain ’round my door
And i’ll die for you, yes I’ll die for you
Is this blood on my hands all for you?

You shiver
And shudder
Recovers your mother
You feel it take control
All alone
Feel alive
In your soul

Come around town
Steal another dime
Take another line
Won’t you feel it
Blanket your soul
Out of mind

Come around town
Steal another dime
Do another crime
Won’t you get it higher and higher
Roll through time

Come around town
Steal another dime
Don’t you push your drugs in my face
Yes, I’m feeling
Feeling fine
Don’t you push your drugs in my face
Or I’m gonna put you in your place
Fuck you
I don’t want it no more
And it’s mine
Said this pain in my heart is all mine
Yes, it’s mine all alone

I don’t want it no more
I don’t want it no more
I don’t want it no more
I don’t want it no more

And it’s mine on my own
Yes, it’s mine all alone
As I cry for you
Yes, I’ll die for you
Pain in my heart, it is real
And I’ll take
Everything as it comes my way
Feel in my heart it’s for you
And I’ll lie for you as I die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I’ll tell you now
How I feel inside

Fuck you
It’s for you.

              -"You", Candlebox from Candlebox

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Holding Out For Heroes

December 6th, 2006 by epoyz

if you’re not down with nbc’s Heroes yet, let me tell you: you’re really missing something.

at first it would seem like a cheap x-men knockoff, but i find this series more compelling and more in the vicinity of being remotely believable than x-men (tama ba yun?). plus, this i get to follow from the very start, i get to see how everything evolves before everything gets muddled up. but, having seen how the series has been superbly written and directed so far, i’m confident it’s going to really rock for a long time. with a team of great comic book writers/ comic buffs in the fold, i’m sure they can keep this series pretty interesting for a while.

yeah, i know, this human evolution thing, you’d probably say it’s kidstuff, right? hey, it’s a TV series, they can go at it a bit realistically while going completely crazy and we can choose to gobble it up or turn the channel, so.. but for the record, let me just say that i’m not closing my mind to the possibilities, ok? heck, in ripley’s they showed a dude who can chew and eat plates and steel and stuff, he must be something special then. they’ve been suspending people only by their skins, thay have monks pulling trucks with ropes tied to their dicks and shit.. so, yes.. count me in among the believers that humans have it in them to evolve into something out of the ordinary. the power of the human body, combined with the human brain’s potential, i believe, can make The Matrix-like stunts pull-able.

besides, wasn’t it just less than two decades ago that when a friend told you that they’re playing music now through digitally embedded data on a plastic disc, you went "no way" and he said "way!"? fifteen years ago your idea of a 40-gigabyte hard disk is a universe of space that will take you years to fill up with data, because you just upgraded your 700mb hard drive to 2 gigabytes of real estate. heck, go back ten years and upon hearing someone say that you can now play computer games with somebody from the other side of the world in real-time, did it not completely blow your mind? five years ago, if somebody told you that you can have your entire cd collection that you scraped your hard-earned money for to collect over the last 20 years, fit into a bubblegum-stick sized music player to take with you wherever you go, you would have exclaimed "are you out of your damn mind?!", right?

now imagine those folks back in the day who first heard about some crazy man claiming to be able to talk to someone far away through an instrument. well, now you have a camera-phone that can record two people having sex and have that clip distributed thru the net faster than you can say sex-starved-pervert.

so, this human evolution stuff, with the help of the blistering pace of technological advancement, may not be so farfetched after all. tomorrow we may wake up to the news reporting about a "crazy" scientist who claim to have discovered a way to awaken dormant strands in our DNA that can give ordinary people extra-ordinary abilities, like being able to crap little pebbles the way goats do.. or some other amazing or at least practical abilities and stuff, but you know what i mean.

ok, on to other things.

just learned that TIME is honoring efren "bata" reyes, along with other filipinos, for their 60 Years Of Asian Heroes issue. you can find the article here. cdq has his take on all of this in here, and i am wholeheartedly in agreement with what he wrote about "bata" in the article. he deserves every bit of this honor that was given to him, and his meek protestations that he doesn’t deserve any of it only cements our conviction that yeah, he definitely deserves this.

not knocking down manny pacquiao or anything, but hey, i’ve never seen anybody root for any of bata’s foreign counterparts  just for the sake of seeing him lose, but i know a lot of guys who were hoping pacquiao would lose in his last fight  because they weren’t too happy with a lot of his career choices. and, ang ganang akin lang, i’ve never seen bata let himself be used by politicians who specialize in basking in reflected glory. obviously, not so much in manny pacquiao’s case. so is this the reason why despite winning the richest prize in pool history last september, walang en grandeng welcoming party para kay bata nung umuwi siya?

anyways, congratulations, sir efren. don’t believe even for a second that you don’t deserve this. you are one of my heroes.

and manny? you better shape up, dude. you have at most ten years before your body fails you, so you better start making the right choices so you’d have a good retirement plan. those blind items where they have you sleeping with a lot of different showbiz bitches? that shit has got to stop, man. you think bata ever did any of that stuff?

at least in billiards bata can keep doing his shit till he’s 70. you better believe it, i’ve seen 80 year-old hustlers in the pool hall back in my high school days, pinapartidahan pa nun yung mga kapustahan nila, libre na yung 15-ball o kaya walang plangketa.

bawat pasok ng bola nangta-trash talk pa yun, sumisigaw ng "jo-leyns!!".

o ha?

———-

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It’s the wrong time
For somebody new
It’s a small crime
And I got no excuse

Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright with you?
If you don’t shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It’s the wrong time
She’s pulling me through
It’s a small crime
And I got no excuse

Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright?
If you dont shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright?
If you don’t shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
If I give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

No..

               -  "9 Crimes", Damien Rice feat. Lisa Hannigan from 9

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Mighty Bond

December 5th, 2006 by epoyz

so. where were we?

let’s start with my overdue James Bond review. ok people, you all had your chance, if you haven’t seen Casino Royale by now, i can’t help you. here come some spoilers.

to start off, let’s me just say for the record that i never really liked Bond movies as an adult (or a 31-year old boy if you’re questioning my maturity), but i did like watching them as a kid. Moonraker, Dr. No, Octupussy (for moi, nastiest movie title e-ver, next to–), Goldfinger— damn, with titles like that, how could any boy say no? but as i grew up and watched Timothy Dalton and Pierce Brosnan take over Roger Moore, i just felt that i outgrew the Bond mystique. apart from his proclivity towards casual fornication, his secret agent exploits just didn’t do it enough to keep me awake for the whole movie. i found his interactions with John Cleese mildly funny, though, whenever he’s demonstrating another wildly invented gadget and Bond is fooling around with it. medyo corny na nga yung iba, e, pero sige, carry lang. e kaso coming into a Bond movie, knowing that whatever happens, bumagsak man ang mundo at mabiyak ang lupa at ngumalngal man si kris aquino sa channel 2, i knew James Bond would come out of it with nary a scratch, so why bother, di ba?

but damn, this daniel craig dude, he just blew my distrust in the Bond franchise out of the freakin’ water, man. this Bond was a ba-aaaaaaaad motherfucker, man. this dude was intense, he was cold but he was amped like A-M-P-E-D, man. damn, was this dog mangy and nasty.

i know, i know, OA na ‘ko, but whew, i never expected to like a Bond movie this much by looking at this pale-as-conan o’ brien’s-ass, grim-faced , dangerously-fast-receding-hairlined, ripped-as-a-mofo dude. never expected him to fit in with what Sean Connery and Roger Moore gave me as a kid. well, he didn’t try to fit in, is what i’m sayin’, he fucking blazed a fucking trail like a freaking trailblazer, man.

you wanted a James Bond to carry you through the 21st century? well, he’s here. and he’s breaking through walls and shit.

first off, nagmukhang lampa si pierce brosnan bigla compared to craig’s version (well, sa lahat naman ng bond, neck-and-neck sila ni timothy dalton sa pagiging balagoong na james bond, e). craig’s built like a mini-tank, agile as a black panther and sleek an’ poised to strike as a king cobra. and he looked very tasty in a tuxedo as well, ahahaay..(get a hold of yourself, man, dammit!)… pierce? in all of his bond movies i always see him holding his breath while acting out his lines, like his gut would jut out of his belt should he try and breathe out a little. craig’s chase scene with the black agile dude at the start of Casino Royale alone is for me worth the price of admission. and that’s word.

one thing that stood out for me is how they made James Bond bleed every time he got into a skirmish. he was tough as heck, this version, but he never came out unscathed. he was always getting bloodied up and ripped open and banged hard that it made you go "yan! ganyan kahirap maging spy!!"..plus he sort of failed in his first few outings, so the element of messing up was established early. at least they made me believe this one ain’t infallible. naniwala naman ako. utu-uto.

plus, this supposed re-telling of the first ever Bond book answered a whole lot of questions for me. like yung pagiging manyak niya, for example. and a few layers of reasons why he just hooks up with women and never ever gets "hooked-up" with them. ‘na mean?

e ikaw ba naman ang dumaan sa torture na ‘yun, no? ako kaya, sabihin lang sa kin ni LeChiffre kung ano gagawin niya dun sa lubid na may bakal e, pati siguro pagpatay kay lagman aaminin koh..pero hayun, natuloy nga ang pag-kalembang sa kanya. ika nga e, dining-dong si james bond. binarog. binayajyaj. isinahog. sinilver bells, silver bells, it’s christmas time in the city..

clarification lang: kinapon siya, pero yung franks ng franks n’ beans niya e ok naman, di ba? pinakinabangan pa nang maigi ni Vesper Lynd nung "honeymoon" nila, e (ok pangalan nung chick niya, naalala ko yung brand ng compressor na binili ko..). and her speech about what’s left of James? bola yun, pero sige na nga..

so yun na nga, after Vesper, sarado na puso ni James. awwwwwww….

ok, so to recap: Casino Royale: aprubado. daniel craig: sabi nila dati (pati ako), di bagay maging James Bond. ngayon ang hatol e, kandidato siya bilang pinaka-OK na James Bond. di poging-pogi, pero lalaking-lalaki ang dating, parang si Daboy. meron nang James Bond na makatotohanan ang pagkakagawa, so i’m eagerly waiting for the next one.

paano kaya ii-spoof ni Austin powers ‘to?

——-

My friend assures me, "It’s all or nothing."
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned.
My friend implores me, "For one time only,
make an exception." I am not worried.
Wrap her up in a package of lies,
Send her off to a coconut island.
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned with the status of my emotions.
"Oh," she says, "you’re changing."
We’re always changing…

It does not bother me to say this isn’t love.
Because if you don’t want to talk about it then it isn’t love.
And I guess I’m gonna have to live with that.
But I’m sure there’s something in a shade of grey,
Or something in between,
And I can always change my name
If that’s what you mean.

My friend assures me, "It’s all or nothing."
But I am not really worried, I am not overly concerned.
You try to tell yourself the things you try to tell yourself
To make yourself forget. To make yourself forget. I am not worried.
"If it’s love," she said, "then we’re gonna have to think about the consequences."
But she can’t stop shaking and I can’t stop touching her and…

This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes her away. And Anna begins to change her mind.
"These seconds when I’m shaking leave me shuddering for days," she says.
And I’m not ready for this sort of thing.

But I’m not gonna break and I’m not gonna worry about it anymore.
I’m not gonna bend, and I’m not gonna break. And I’m not going to worry about it anymore.
It seems like I should say, "As long as this is love…"
But it’s not all that easy, so maybe I should
Snap her up in a butterfly net and pin her down on a photograph album.
I am not worried cuz I’ve done this sort of thing before.
But then I start to think about the consequences,
And I don’t get no sleep in a quiet room and…

This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes me away. And Anna begins to change my mind.
And everytime she sneezes I believe it’s love and,
Oh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing.

She’s talking in her sleep.
It’s keeping me awake. And Anna begins to toss and turn.
And every word is nonsense but I understand and,
Oh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing.

Her kindness bangs a gong,
It’s moving me along. And Anna begins to fade away.
It’s chasing me away. She disappears, and
Oh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing.

              - "Anna Begins", Counting Crows from August and Everything After

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